YOU WATCH THE MOVIES

YOUR TELEVISION PROGRAMMING

YOU WATCH WHAT YOU WANT

YOUR FAVORITES

AND YOU KNOW IT’S ALL SCRIPTED

IT’S ENTERTAINMENT

THAT’S THE POINT

PEOPLE THINK ALL OF IT UP

OTHER PEOPLE

JUST LIKE THE BOOKS YOU READ

THE COMMERCIALS YOU SEE

ALL AND EVERYTHING AROUND YOU

OTHER PEOPLE THOUGHT UP

YOU ARE WHO AND WHAT YOU ARE

YOU THINK UP

WHAT YOU THINK UP

MAYBE IT DOESN’T REACH A LOT OF PEOPLE

MAYBE ONLY A FEW

YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE

YOU DO YOUR JOB

IF YOU HAVE ONE

WE’RE ALL HERE TO DO

WHAT WE’RE ALL HERE TO DO

WHO DECIDES THAT?

WHO WROTE THAT UP?

WHAT SCRIPT SAYS IT HAS TO BE THAT WAY?

DOES IT HAVE TO BE THAT WAY?

SIGH

A LONG TIME AGO

ON MY JOURNEY

TO HERE AND NOW

SOMEONE TOLD ME

THAT THIS WAS ALL ENTERTAINMENT FOR GOD

I NEVCER FORGOT THAT….I WONDERED ABOUT IT

I STUDIED THE WHOLE THING

AS BEST I COULD

I DID SOME CRAZY SHIT

REALLY

TO DIG DEEPER

HIGHER

FARTHER

AND I HAD TO EXPERIENCE

A WHOLE LOT OF INDESCRIBABLE

UNREASONABLE

ILLOGICAL

UNFATHOMABLE

SOMETIMES TOTALLY ABSTRACT

CIRCUMSTANCES AND SITUATIONS

SPIRITUALLY RARE OCCURENCES

THAT ONLY SOME OF THE ELECT FEW

MUST ENDURE…….

FUCK ME, RIGHT?

MANY ARE CALLED

I ANSWERED

FEW ARE CHOSEN

I SHOWED UP

I DID WHAT I WAS TOLD TO DO

I PASSED THE TEST

FUCK ME, RIGHT?

I WAS A COLD OPERATIVE

THROWN ONTO A HOT POSITION

LIVE AND LEARN MOFO

LIVE AND LEARN

THIS HAS BEEN MY LIFE

YOU PEOPLE DON’T GEDT IT

I SPENT TIME LOOKING FOR PEOPLE I COULD TRUST

TO WORK WITH ME

TO GET THIS THING DONE

ONLY TO BE BETRAYED

WAYLAID

THAT’S OKAY

I LIVED

I KEPT GOING

FUCK THAT SHIT

WASN’T ME

I KEPT GOING

EVENTUALLY I FORGAVE MY EVIL FRIEND

I NEVER FORGOT

SO BE IT

I KEPT GOING

CRAP TO THE LEFT OF ME

CRAP TO THE RIGHT

HERE I AM

STUCK IN THE MIDDLE WITH GOD

THE ONE

A PROTECTIVE SHIELD ALL AROUND ME

KEEPING ME SAFE

FROM ALL HARM

THAT I DO NOT DO TO MYSELF

BUT GOD

THE ONE WAS KIND

GOD TOLD ME TO BE SOMEWHERE

TO WORK THERE

DO THAT

AND WHEN MY LUNG COLLAPSED

I WAS RIGHT AROUND THE CORNERFROM THE BEST HOSPITAL

IN THE COUNTRY

THE UNIVERSITY OF CHICAGO MEDICAL SYSTEM

I LIVED

I AM STILL HERE……

ANOTHER STORY

ANOTHER EVENT

MY WHOLE LIFE HAS BEEN A TESTIMONY TO THE WILL OF THE ONE

THE GLORY OF GOD IN THE HIGHERST

I  AND I AM IN LOVE

I LOVE GOD

GOD LOVES I

WE ARE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER

I ACT LIKE IT

GOD ACTS LIKE IT

THIS IS THE WAY IT IS

I GET IT

THIS IS IT

THIS IS THE WAY

TO LIVE WITH GOD IN LOVE WITH GOD IN LOVE WITH WHO AND WHAT I AM

YOU CAN DO IT

YOU CAN BE IT

YOU ARE IT

YOU JUST DON’T RECOGNIZE IT………

YEARS AGO

I WAS DRIVING A SCHOOL BUS

IT WAS SUMMER…THEN FALL….

THEY HAD ME STATIONED IN SCHAUMBURG, IL

2 – 3 HOURS AWAY FROM HOME

I WOKE UP AT 2 A.M.

I LEFT HOME AT 3:00 A.M.

TO GET TO WORK AT 5:30 A.M.

TO DO THE MORNING RUN AND GET THE KIDS TO SCHOOL ON TIME

AND THEN RETURN TO BASE

WITH NOWHERE TO GO

TO SPEND FOUR HOURS A DAY

BACK AT BASE

WITH NOTHING TO DO

THE AFTERNOON RUN WOULD BE DONE

AND I WOULD RETURN TO BASE

ONLY TO TAKE THE TRIP HOME AND ARRIVE

ABOUT 7PM TO 8PM OR LATER……..

I DID MY BEST TO ENJOY IT……..

I WAS THERE FOR A SUMMER

EASIER

THE USUAL MORNING PICK-UPS AND DROP-OFFS

AFTER THAT

MOSTLY FIELD TRIPS

IN THE LOCAL AREA

MORE TIME TO ONE’S SELF…….

I USUALLY SLEPT IN A STORAGE ROOM WITH AN EASY CHAIR

BUT IT WAS SUMMER

SO I WAS OUT IN THE YARD

WITH MY SUMMER CAMP LOUNGE CHAIR

AND A LARGE, FROZEN LEMONADE

AND MY SMOKES

AND A LARGE BRIMMED HAT OVER MY FACE

CHILLIN’

WHEN A GROUP OF WOMEN CAME UP TO ME AND SAID:

WELL, ARE YOU ALL THAT……

LOOK AT YOU, ALL CHILLIN’

WHAT MAKES YOU SO SPECIAL?

I RAISED MY BRIM AND LOOKED AT T

THEM AND REPLIED:

GOD LOVES ME.

THEY ALL HESITATED AND ONE SPOKE UP AND REPLIED:

WELL, GOD LOVES ME, TOO!

I SAID

‘YES!  BUT GOD LOVES ME!’

SHE ANSWERED

GOD LOVES ME!

I AGAIN ANSWER WITH THE SAME AND SO DID SHE

AFTER SUCH EXCHANGES

THE LADIES GAVE UP AND WALKED ON

I

I WAS DISAPPOINTED

I EXPECTED

AT LEAST ONE OF THEM

TO ASK WHAT THE DIFFERENCE WAS

AND I WOULD HAVE TOLD THEM:

LOOK

YOU LOVE GOD

GOD LOVES YOU

YOU ARE HAPPY TO SAY THAT GOD LOVES YOU

FINE

I AM SURE THAT YOU ARE JUST AS HAPPY TO SAY

THAT YOU LOVE GOD

FINE…..

BUT HERE’S THE THING THAT SEPARATES US……..

I AM IN LOVE WITH GOD

I KNOW THAT GOD IS IN LOVE WITH ME

WE ARE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER

THIS IS WHY I AM OUT HERE

IN THIS RECLINING SUMMER LOUNGE CHAIR

WITH AN EXTRA LARGE LEMONADE SLUSHY

IN THE CUP HOLDER

AND MY HAT BRIM OVER MY FACE…..

I ALSO HAVE A PORTABLE SONY PLAYSTATION 2 CONSOLE

WHICH I WILL GO PLAY LATER

AT MY LEISURE

ON ONE OF THE SEVERAL TV’S IN THE EMPLOYEE LOUNGE AREA

SO YES

I WILL BE HAPPY AND HEALTHTY AND ENTERTAINED TODAY

AND FOR AS MANY DAYS AS GOD LETS ME BE

WHY?

BECAUSE I AM DOING SOMETHING YOU ARE NOT!?

WHAT IS THAT?

THEY ASKED

INDIGNANTLY……

I SAID…

‘GOD LOVES YOU, YES?’

‘YES, OF COURSE!’

‘YOU LOVE GOD, YES?’

‘YES, OF COURSE!’

‘THEN YOU AND GOD ARE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER…’

‘HUH?  WHAT?’

‘YOU AND GOD ARE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER, RIGHT?’

‘HOW CAN YOU SAY SUCH A THING!?  THAT IS BLASPHEMY!

‘WHY!?’

‘I DON’T KNOW!  BECAUSE IT IS!’

‘WHY?  YOU LOVE GOD. GOD LOVES YOU.

WHY CAN YOU NOT BE IN LOVE WITH GOD AND GOD BE IN LOVE WITH YOU? 

IS THAT NOT THE VERY MEANING OF DIVINE LOVE AND LOVING GOD AND GOD LOVING ALL?’

LOOK…ALL I’M SAYING IS THIS…

THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ME LAYING HERE IN PEACE AND JOY

IN THIS RECLINING LOUNGE CHAIR WITH THIS GRAND SLUSHIE BY MY SIDE

AND MY FAVORITE HAT OVER MY EYES IS SIMPLY BECAUSE I AM ABOVE BOARD

AND OPEN

ABOUT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD

WE ARE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER.

GOD LOVES ME AND I LOVE GOD

WE ARE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER

IT IS THE SAME FOR ALL AND ANY OF YOU

EXCEPT THAT I ACT LIKE IT…. YOU DON’T

WHY IS THAT?’

THEY LOOKED AT ME

AND I COULD TELL

THEY DIDN’T QUITE GET THE CONCEPT

SAD, BUT TRUE

THEY WERE

IN THEIR OWN MINDS

SEPARATE FROM GOD

AS THEY WERE TAUGHT

PERHAPS I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN THAT FURTHER

AND TAUGHT THEM ABOUT DIVINE UNITY

MAYBE

MAYBE NOT

THEY WERE NOT READY

I HAD TO LET IT GO

I HAVE LIVED MY WHOLE LIFE

DOING GOD’S WILL

EVER SINCE I WAS 11 YEARS OLD

AND DECIDED THAT GOD’S WILL WAS WHAT I NEEDED TO FIGURE OUT

WHO AND WHAT CHRIST IS

AND THEN

LATER

WHO AND WHAT WE ARE

AND THEN LATER

WHO AND WHAT WE ALL ARE

ALL OF US

IN CREATION

HENCE MY COLLEGE CAREER

AND BEYOND

EVEN UNTO HERE AND NOW

QUITE A FANCY TALE

I TELL YOU

TOO MUCH TO TELL

EXCEPT FOR ONE THING

I FOUND IT

I KNOW WHERE THE UNICORN’S HORN IS…..

I OWN IT.

LOVE YOU ALL

GOD BLESS YOU ALL

KIBO[MUAHAHAHAHAAAAA]DABI